Things I've learned

So little man has survived two weeks with us!! It seems amazing to me that my life has been completely changed and its only been two weeks. In some ways it's flown by in others it's been a long hard two weeks. I'm so thankful for friends and church family, they've kept me grounded and looking at the bigger picture. They've also taught me that no matter how hard I've had it or feel like I've had it someone else's story is much worse than mine. At the end of the day my baby is healthy and growing, and his problems were temporary where as some people's baby stories are the beginning of an extremely long hard road, our journey always had an end in sight even if at the time it was hard for me to see. So here's what I've learned, I'm an emotional wreck after birth, my husband is more my rock than he will ever realize, my mother is my hero, and my father and brother always have my back. I've learned how thankful I am my husband gets to stay with me and how unprepared I was to be a mom no matter how much I thought I had it all together, I've learned that having a plan is great but always expect the most unexpected to happen even if you think that wont happen to you. I've learned that at the end of the day my husband my have this down, but I'm still learning. I do better tossed in the sea and left to figure it out on my own, that sometimes you just have to make me be independent so that I learn in my own way I can be a mom. And finally I've learned that I am a mom, I already worry, my life isn't and will never be what it used to be and my marriage has so many new meanings and layers, I still have to pinch myself at being so blessed.